What did she want? I seem to spend almost all of my life trying to work this out, should it be such a puzzle? This whole relationship thing could just be beyond me.
When it started it was all love and lust. Of course things change, they always do. I am just not sure what this has become now.
I don’t want to give up on things, but there has to come a time when that decision has to be made.
I would just feel like such a fool if I finished things and there could have been a simple solution which I was missing. Part of me thinks that I should go with the flow, while another says to be a man and make the break.
Am I happy? That has to be the main question and the answer to that is no. I am spending half my time stressing about what to do next and the rest of the time on eggshells. That in itself should give me the answer. The only thing to do is talk, explain how I feel, and see what she says. Then it will, somehow, resolve itself. Let’s do this!
I did the best that I could but she lost it as soon as I started speaking. Now, I just feel so disappointed. That is the overriding feeling. Just, why?
Now, as I look at her, I can’t help feeling, what? Helpless, I suppose.
I think that I was kind, as well as caring, in how I told her my feelings. I was honest, and they say that is the best policy. Well, that is obviously bullshit.
As soon as I started speaking she went off her nut. Everything was my fault apparently. When she got in my face something just snapped inside me. All the love, all the caring, all our history was replaced by hate.
Once my hands were around her throat her eyes widened and she realised her mistake. I also realised that there was no going back.
What do I do now? Can you just google how to dispose of a body?
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